Apr 20, 2009 - Uncategorized    115 Comments

Robbed and broken

I started blogging precisely two years ago. In the past two years, I have been happy, I have been sad, I have been angry and elated as well, and I have shared all that with my readers – some of you have become friends over a period of time – and basked in the attention I got through your comments and feedback.

I thought I would write a happy post to mark two years of blogging, but my life has gone haywire for the past three weeks. My dad is still in hospital battling it out. He looks good one day but relapses the next. It is extremely frustrating to see the most important person in your life being so fragile and helpless and your inability to do anything about it.

As if this was not enough to cope with, we were robbed by armed robbers on Saturday. I spent the morning in the hospital and came home to have some lunch and take a quick shower. While I was still in there, someone started knocking on my door. I thought it was the boy who helps me with my dad and I asked him to wait. But when he kept on knocking, I assumed the worst and thought he got a phone call from the hospital. When I opened the door of my room, I saw two burly men in their late twenties pointing their pistols at me. They thrust open the door and pushed me in and started asking for cash, gold and dollars. The first thing they picked up in my room was my cell phone and kept asking for those dollars that they thought I had. The other guy spotted both my personal laptop and my office laptops on my table as I was working till 3.00 am the night before to catch up. He picked them up and then broken my cupboard with a tool and started trashing the place. They took all the cash we had at home, another cell phone that I had and the only piece of jewelry I wear – a diamond ring – and twisted my arm in the process. They kept asking for gold while ransacking my room and threatened me with rape every thirty seconds if I do not cooperate. When they were satisfied that I did not have any other valuable stashed somewhere, they locked us in one of the rooms, took my car keys with them and left. We called our neighbours from the windows, but no one listened. Eventually, we broke down the door with the hammer and came out.

The police was polite and courteous but told us that there is no chance that we will get back our stuff. When I asked the SHO to take the finger prints and then match them with NADRA (National Data Registration Authority) records to arrest the culprits, I was told that the police station does not have the equipment to take the finger prints or any other forensic evidence. I was basically told that I should look for a new computer and the ASI suggested that I should keep a guard dog at home because my house is a soft target. Thank you Mr. ASI to let me know that I am soft target because my government, which takes a pretty decent chunk out of my pocket in direct and indirect taxes, has failed me yet again. It failed to provide trained, competent and able law-enforcement officers or institutions that can nab such criminals, it failed to ensure the freedom of its citizens, it has failed to enforce its writ and most of all, it has failed to develop a system where a crime against an individual becomes state’s responsibility.

How am I coping with it? I don’t know, I guess I am surviving somehow. I lost everything I wrote since 2001, over 5000 pieces of music that collected over a period of time, over 5000 photos that chronicled my life in different countries and in different phases of my life. My two dissertations, my numerous academic essays, over 200 published articles, two short stories and three chapters of the novel I was working on, everything was on those two computers and it is all gone. Basically I just lost last 9 years of my life. I was not only robbed, they managed to break something else, the spirit to go on.

Last year, I was chased by crazy Taliban in one of the main roads of the city, now I am robbed in broad day light and the police can only offer me the advice to get a guard dog! Welcome to the land of pure.

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115 Comments

  • Dear Tazeen,

    I just accidentally ended up on your website while casually surfing the net. All I can say to you regarding the horrible incident is sorry and you are not alone. I had resettled back in Pakistan in 2007 with high hopes, after spending serveral years abroad. However, all changed for me when me, my spouse and kids had to endure a similar horrific incident a few months ago in Karachi. Since I still had my overseas contacts it did not take long for me to call it quits as far as Pakistan was concerned.

    Please acceptance my sincere sympathies again.

  • Hey Tazeen

    I am so sorry to hear about this. You certainly didn’t need this awful crapfest on top of dealing with your dad’s health issues.

    Has anything like this happened to you or anyone you know before?

    I don’t even know what to say other than I’m horrified and disgusted at how pathetic some people are. To steal someone’s life work is worse than a crime, it is evil.

    What is going on in pakistan?! I’ve been hearing that there’s growing support for Taliban rule in the rest of Pakistan, besides what the Taliban are already controlling. Is this true?

    I think though that you will rise up from this. I hope you do. Nothing that’s worth achieving is easy to do. Don’t stop writing, don’t let the bastards bring you down.

    Sending you thoughts of strength and clarity.
    Kiran

  • this is insane. i don’t even know what to say to you.
    we’re slowly losing whatever sanity we had as a country. :S wtf is happening.

  • i’m really really sorry to hear all of this tazeen.. this was the last thing you needed on top of your dad being in the hospital. i can’t imagine what you must be going through.. to think that those fuckers threatened you in such a way. gosh, only a fellow writer can imagine the utter lost of your writings dissapear like that.

    i’m so so sorry. and will be praying for uncle and you.

    hugs.

    🙁

  • though words cannot soothe the pain and anguish you must be going through yet I cant even come up with words to say to you. I am sorry that you had to go through this. Please accept my sympathies.

  • though words cannot soothe the pain and anguish you must be going through yet I cant even come up with words to say to you. I am sorry that you had to go through this. Please accept my sympathies.

    Ibrahim

  • Dearest Tazeen,

    I wish I didn’t have to add to the sinking feeling about your loss but rest assured my thoughts are totally with you.

    If you have a new number please let me know. I may be passing through possibly the worst phase in my career, too, but it pales before what you now miss: losing your work and the yet-to-be sepia tones of what you have experienced on the face of this cinder of a planet — the real treasure in our mundane lives.

    Please remember, am always there for you no matter what. And if you consider it any worth, I’m just a call away.

    Regardless of what we can do, I will always want you to stand up like the BRAVE woman you are: truly, one in a million in a Godforsaken country like this.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your dad. May Allah Almighty give him health and you the peace of mind, which is your right.- Ameen

    Love,

    Kamran

  • i dont know you and i just came across ur blog…but i am so sorry for ur loss tazeen …i have no words except my sincerest apologies on the behalf of our country and my sympathies 🙁

  • I was robbed about 5 years ago, twice… The first time was while I was out not home, the second time it was a few days after my insurance company had replaced everything in the house… It really sucks to say but a guard dog might not be a bad idea…

    As for your incredible streak of bad luck, I can only mirror the feelings and words of the others who have already posted their comments here. My thoughts are also with you and please don’t let anyone break your spirit.

  • I’ve been a silent follower all this time… Just wanted to offer you my heartfelt sympathy… hope your dad gets better.. Please take care of yourself.

  • I am so sorry girl. These criminals will surely burn in hell for this. Most of all I am so shocked from the behavior of the police in your area. What kind of government is this. They cant protect their citizens. And in return they want our money to give salaries to these criminals (police). I think this was an set up by police and these criminals who in turn will gonna sell your products and distribute it equally. And for you Tazneen, there is only one thing coming into my mind. “Tough times never last, but tough people do”. I believe in you and you will surely gonna succeed in watever you were doing previously. They have taken your laptops and cash, but they have not taken your destiny. Keep up the good spirit that you have shown in the life. And I will pray to God for you and your family.

  • I’m sorry to hear about your dad, and the best of my prayers for his fast recovery and good health. Keep asking God for His blessings, while the doctors treat him. Never underestimate either.

    And shocking news about the robbery in broad day-light. They kill for snatching mobiles these days, so good, at least, that you aren’t hurt.

  • Hey,
    Am just a silent reader on your blog..Really sorry to hear about your dad’s ill health and you losing all ur work…

    I hope things start looking up for you soon

    -SV

  • stay strong girl.. you can and you will

    god bless

    http://www.chronicwriter.com

  • Hi Tazeen,

    I am so sorry for the trauma you had to go through. Please remain strong. My prayers & well wishes for you and your father.

    Meher

  • Tazeen,

    Although I don’t know you personally, I can imagine how terrible this must be for you. I’m so sorry to hear that such things had to happen. Hope that things look up soon.

  • So sorry to hear about your experience – I wish there’s something I could do to help.

    Wish you all the strength of this world, and your dad a speedy and a healthy recovery.

    -Zoobee

  • All my sympathies for what you have gone through.

  • Tazeen:

    This is horrific. I am so sorry. I completely empathize. Inshallah things will get better.

    Take care

  • My sympathies are with you. I know how you feel as we too were robbed last year I am happy that you are safe and sound though.I pray for your dad that he gets better now.May you have peace and comfort at this difficult time.

  • What happened to you sounds excruciatingly painful and terrible and nothing I write will make you feel better, but I shall say it nevertheless: you have my deepest sympathies, and I hope from the bottom of my heart that you’re okay now.

  • Tazeen-

    I also don’t know you personally but feel like I have gotten to know you a little through your amazing writing. I am so sorry for everything that has happened to you, and I pray that your father gets well soon inshallah. I do want you to NOT feel broken though. You are a strong woman, someone all of us respect and admire, which is why we read your incredible pieces, and while situations like this beat you down, we all know you can survive it. Do not let criminals break you because you are stronger and better than that.

    I know it’s a lot easier said than done, but since I was once in a pretty dark spot in my life, you have to see the light at the end of that tunnel to keep yourself chugging through. And I know I’m a stranger, but if you ever need to talk, you know how to find me – seriously.

  • I am so sorry to hear of this. I do wish I could do something – I know how hard losing those mementos and memories must be. Keep your chin up- I don’t need to say that to you- and know I am out here rooting for you.

  • I am horrified. I don’t know if there’s even a word for what I feel; this is outrage.

    @ your title, you are robbed, but not broken. You’re strong. We know that. Take it coming from someone who has been reading you for quite some time: YOU ARE STRONG. You’re going to make it. The situation with your dad sucks and having been in the same place, I can sympathize because I know its hard, but it will pass. We’re all praying for his health.

    I wish I could do something to help. 🙁

  • at least you didn’t get raped..

  • Hi

    You are one of the writers I faithfully follow. You really stand out for your courage in speaking against the manipulated elements in our polity. Now it is unbearable to see you victimised by the same forces.

    Like water on a lotus leaf, let these incidents slide over you. I know my words will not bring back anything you have lost but I want you to know I will pray for you and your father.

    Sam L (Bangalore)

  • Ouch! Hope things will get better for you soon. All I can say is keep going…

  • Hello Dost,

    I’m from India and have been reading your blog since last 10-15 days. I just can undrstand wht you are going through, have been through similar trauma’s quiet often.
    Don’t lose faith in life, the brave comes victorius. Leave Pakistan anyhow, I know its easier said than done but please find a way.

    All my wishes with you, be safe. Take Care.

  • So very sorry to read this. I recently lost a lot of valuables (thanks to cable thieves), but those can all be replaced.

    Nothing can replace the writings you lost or the trauma you suffered. I’m not one to run, but this country leaves one no choice.

  • Tell me about it. I got mugged in February and like you say these people end up breaking one’s spirit in the process. A bunch of hard working men and women are targets for such people who can virtually wipe out everything that you own. So sad.

  • I’m so sorry that you had to go through that. You will heal from this experience, Inshallah 🙂

  • I just dun hv words 2 express…I knw all words of consolation would feel hollow but plz…dun let the spirit break!!!

  • Tazeen I am sooo sorry. I know how much your abba means to you and how horrific this whole ordeal must have been on top of his health problems 🙁
    I have known you for so long and you have always been so strong. Just hang in there. I am so so sorry. I hope your abba gets better soon.
    Ufff I am so sorry 🙁

  • I have never faced a gun barrel, so I can only imagine the effect of this incident on you. From your blog posts you come across as a person on whom the effect of such events will only be momentary. A couple of months from now, you might just look back at it as an experience that helped you describe what it is to live under the rule of Kalashnikovs!

    Good luck.

  • Heyy

    I have been reading your blog for sometime..when I first came across your blog..you wouldn’t believe but I kept reading all your past blogs for 2-3 days in a row until I finished all!!! You write that well!! I am sure you know about that..
    I kept checking your page for past 2-3 days and was wondering about you and your dad’s health and really really sorry to hear about what happened! I know right now nothing can bring back what you have lost but just be strong at this time and take care of yourself and your dad! It’s frustrating..I know but just remember that they can not steal your craft and courage! Once your dad is fine, you will HAVE to start afresh and build it back slowly!

    -LG

  • Hey Tazeen,

    So sorry to hear this. First your father’s health and then this. Really, my heart goes out to you. You are such a brave girl in a country I thought was riddled with so much oppression. You truly are !

    I just hope God gives you the courage to fight back and that your father’s health takes a turn for the better.

    My wishes are with you. I wish I could help you more.

    Rachna

  • Dear Tazeen,
    Don’t lose spirit. Just take these as valuable lessons and move on. You are not what you were..you are what you will be.

    -GP

  • This is madness — I am at a complete loss of words. But as others have been saying, stay strong and don’t lose hope.

    You and your dad have my sympathies and prayers.

  • Tazeen, when I first read this I was so overcome I couldn’t even come up with anything (and still can’t) that wouldn’t sound like a cliche. I can’t even imagine how you must be coping with all of this at the same time. My deepest, deepest sympathies and may God help your father, you and your family through these times. Insha Allah he’ll get better and you’ll find a way to cope with this. 🙂

  • Hi Tazeen,

    I really dont know what to say after reading this post… it literally gave goosebumps.

    Still, stay strong. I will keep you in my prayers and good thoughts. I am sure things will get better from here onwards. God cant be that cruel.

    Neeku

  • Its better to look at things in life that you have right now – like your father, your friends and good experiences…

  • pretty pathetic.

    There should be a centralized alarming system in each mohallah to notify neighbors about any mishap.

    So who will be blamed this time?

  • Its really very disturbing and shocking to read abt what happened to you.
    May Allah be with u and give u courage to overcome this difficult situation.
    We all pray for early recovery of your father.

    Sincerely’
    Syed Jamal

  • I am really sorry for all of your hard work you put in last 9 years.

  • Sorry that this happened but glad you are safe. Nothing is more important than that.

  • I hope your Dad gets better soon.

    The incident is shocking esp. since it it happened in broad daylight. Although, I hope it doesn’t stop you from writing.

    PS: As far as Major Kayani being the same person as Gen. Kayani is concerned, well I hope not. Although, if the writer wrote him as a fictional character, it was very smart of him.

  • horrible

  • Tazeen,

    Am truly sorry this happened to you. I am sure it must have been a terrible experience. Glad you’re safe.

    You might have been robbed and your home broken into, but no way will you be broken. Keep fighting, keep being the Tazeen we know.

    And I hope your dad has a speedy recovery. Hang in there.

    Quirky Indian

  • Tazeen,

    I dont want to console you. I dont want you to forget it and move ahead with your life. Because of two reasons:

    One: I dont want you to move on, just like that… if people like you and me always moved on, we are equally being part of offence. I dont know what should we do, but we should not atleast forget it and brush it under the carpet as if it has never happened. That doesnt make us “brave” and “daring”. Instead it strengthens those miscreants that they can do anything to anyone and can get away with it.

    Two: I think I can really understand what all is lost along with two laptops. I once had one such hard-drive which faced similar ending. So I dont have any word in my dictionary which can make you feel better.

    Move on but dont leave it there… follow those bastards and nail them down.

    I will pray for your father and hopefully he’d be back home very soon.

    -Sudeep

  • Tazeen…my words won’t be any more comforting then anyone elses and they won’t bring back what you have lost. I am truely sorry for the situation you’re in and I will keep you in my dua’s. Everything will be alright. InshaAllah Ameen.

  • that is horrible.

    a fucked up reminder of the transience of life and possessions, but really i think you were getting enough of that as it is. hopefully our combined good-will might help.

    🙂

  • Thanks a lot for the kind words, but right now, I am too distraught right now to even think about my course of action for future.

    I am depressed beyond words, losing one’s intellectual property on top of a personal ordeal is too much. I never begged anyone in my life but I begged them to leave my computers with me, one of the robbers punched me in the ribs for raising my voice. They were taking away my life’s work and they were annoyed that I raised my voice! Sometimes, life gets just a little too tough.

  • Very sorry to hear that, Tazeen.
    You are right, life can get a bit too tough at times but you know you can pass it through. We know you can pass it through. You can’t lose your spirit to go on. That is too precious a thing a lose just because of a couple of morons.

  • BTW, read this: http://rd-sak.blogspot.com/2009/03/are-you-sure-you-are-secure.html. The guy’s deck got stolen from his car on Khi’s main road and he was able to get it back through the police because of his contacts.
    I know this guy and I know this incident happened. Do you have any such contacts that can make this happen for you, maybe, by twisting the ASI’s arms or something?

  • Hi,
    Cant tell you how sorry I am for your loss. I dont think there is anything I can say to make this easier on you. So, I’d just leave my best wishes & prayers.
    May God give you strenght to cope with this & may He grant health to your father soon.

  • sad….but tell me somethin…how can you open the door without knowing whose on the other side? I mean, I dont blame you…but then you are equally responsible for your own safety as much as ur government is…anyways..hope you are more careful next time

  • This is horrible 🙁

  • Sent you an email on the Manchester Alumni email address listed on your blogger profile. Please check and ack.

  • So sorry to read about the ordeal you had to go thru and your losses. Money and valuables come and go, but I can understand your anguish on the loss of your writings. Is it possible to trace your laptops at some nearby computer shops or something? Maybe the robbers pawn it and you can recover them afterall! Please do not lose hope Tazeen!

  • Hi Tazeen,
    Really sorry to hear about what happened. Such incidents make me so angry, I dont know what I would have done if I were in the same situation, may be nothing more than what you did.
    I don’t know what to say, thinking about it just makes me very angry. I am sorry it happened. I am sorry that you had to go through it. Its a true tragedy and I hope that if somehow things can be recovered, it gets recovered. IN such lawless world, maybe you should hire your own detective and bunch of influential people and go after these mofu’s and kick the living crap out of them. I don’t know.

    I hope your dad gets better. I hope you somehow find all your stuff. You should have taken backups on DVD for important stuff, atleast one in 6 months. They will have very little motivation to steal DVD’s. Well..I can only imagine the anguish that you are going through right now. It makes me very upset.

    This is not just your story, its happening so often that we can no longer close our eyes and accept that as an isolated incidence. I read couple of months ago that some robbers were burnt on the main street while other stood their and watched. What kind of a world is this? I cannot truely comprehend it. What kind of Allah’s pretty world is this and what kind of a creature we men are.? Rape, killing,, such acts of sheer disgust and are so common. I just want to know who are these people, these hiding behind veils or some other unseen masks, who are those fu***** people. Dont they have families, dont they have any kind of morality. This is beyond poverty and roti, kapra makaan. this is ZULM.. Pakistan’s true history of independence is nothing but a stage drama of mass murders and material gains. What the f…
    Please get well….

  • Hey Tazeen, I am sorry to hear about your Dad and you loss. I understand how you must feel. I felt BAD when people robbed me of my wallet in New Delhi. I lost only 3k, but I was enraged at law enforcement.

    They took more valuable things (almost everything) from you and priceless DATA. I understand it is hard. But what use is that data for them? Isn’t there any source in police (I am assuming like in India jugaad works there) who can help you recover your data. Usually police IS hand-in-glove with these robbers.

    In any case, you must pick up the threads. There must be a backup, or some writing in your email, office server. Make sure you are protected that next time it doesn’t happen.

    I THANK God that you are SAFE. Life and safety is most important thing. Take care, God bless!

  • I really don’t have words to react to this… I’m really upset with the present state of affairs at pakistan…

    I only have 1 question …..is the law and order better in India…

    plzz don’t mind this question….just a thought…take it in good spirit

  • Nothing said is going to make up for your loss & frankly I have got no words apart from the cliché that I am really sorry….

    Have come to know you through your writings & am praying that you do find a way back because your voice is among those few who are not ready to give up….

    Praying for ur ABBA….

  • I am so, so, so sorry for you. I pray you recover over this fully, and your father gets back to good health.

  • I just dont know what to say, all I can offer is meaningless words of support and prayers that your dad recovers soon IA and *HUG*

    PS: Keep Faith, seem like that is all we have and even that is being maligned.

  • I wish all the good health for your dad.
    life opts to be ruthless when you least expect.

  • @Tazeen : I am at loss of words.

  • 🙁

  • Tazeen

    the hidden motive here seems to be to break ur spirit…they arent robbers, they have been hired by those in power…the fact that police didnt ‘do’ anything also confirms this fact

    u r definitely strong – to blog about this under so much depression n pain…u will pass thru this, Tazeen

    n time will give u n all of us here all the answers..meantime, dont be alone..be with ur dad n close friends n take some time off from work …take care

    pls accept my prayers n wishes
    May the force be with u, Tazeen.

  • Hey buddy ,

    I am a silent reader of your blog for a long time.Really appreciate your work. I am really sorry for what happened and really wish well for your Dad.

    Anyway if you can get me the IP addresses of your laptop, I might get them traced as soon as they hook up with the internet provided that they are in Pakistan. IP addresses can be found on the side of the package or can be obtained from the dealer.

    Just leave them on the comment box. :)…. Wish you all the best !

    Saad

  • Hi Tazeen,

    Words cannot begin to express how sorry and saddened I am over what happened.May god give you strength in this moment of crisis.

  • Tazeen, sorry that they punched you. I realized the pain of being punched myself and the bruises only when I knew they were gone. Perhaps the adrenaline rush makes one numb when it is all happening. What follows next is depression. during the recovery phase, you will be all alone…it will be very tough but you need to be strong. Tell yourself that you are not responsible. Forgive yourself because you are good. You cause no harm to anyone. And look at all the people who love you and who are reaching out to you. What greater reaffirmation of humanity than this. The best stories are in your mind; they will eventually come back to you and you will make us all very proud. For now, I just pray that you are ok and much stronger than I was.

  • @Tazeen : At the best of times, my life is pretty chaotic… and your writing is one of the things which is sure to make me chuckle… and it so pains me to see this happen to you… I hope your dad gets well soon… and I hope you get through all this with your spirit intact… the world needs a Tazeen now, perhaps more than ever!

  • Prayers are with you Tazeen.
    Here’s to your strength.

  • contact taliban, they might be able to provide you insaaf.

  • That was disheartening to read and I’m once again reminded about how blessed I am for simply living here I live. I wish you good luck for the future, you’ve had enough of the other side already, and that things turns out for the best for you and your family. I keep thinking about your father and I hope he’s doing well, or at least better.

  • Hi Tazeen,

    That can happen anywhere but what makes this part of the world special is the fact that we end up being mere statistics. Nothing is done to either prevent all that or provide justice. And it is business-as-usual with the people at the helm.

    I hope and pray that your father finds his health and you your will to go on, stronger than ever.

  • Remain steadfast, Tazeen, and I think that is exactly what you try to do during these hard times.

    Nill illigitimi carborundum DON’T LET THE BASTARDS GRIND YOU DOWN.

    Next year, in April 2010, when looking back then, this will be part of your personal history.

    Georg

  • Sad to know about the incident happened to you lately. It’s just so direful to see that happening so often in our country – the life is getting miserable to live, and the security condition is just so fallible. We can just hope for the best. That’s all we own – hopes and hopes.

    Anyhow, Prayers for your father!

  • It was so sad to hear what you went through and then these jaahil,police pigs,sorry for the language. I have formed a crises support group fordefence residents after the rape and robberies and violence in these areas. But the town police officer is asking me to forget about these white corolla crimes and wind up my support group and find better things to do . he was so rude when we went for a meeting with him and said theses defence ladies were useless and w their own women didnt have problems as they did not do any thing bad a nd didnt come out. ( this guy is pathan) he assumes there are no pathan families in defence. There are so many issues with this police thats why we are not getting safety and security.I hope your father gets well. Ia m doctor so please email me if you ned any advice or help. my e mail is here.Dr Meher Zaidi. meherzaidi@yahoo.com

  • I ended up on your blog accidentally while surfing, but it is very interesting.
    So sorry to hear about the robbery, men like that have no conscience and the sad part there is an alarming increase of such people in our nation. They range from our leaders to the fake beggar on a street.
    I also pray that your father get well soon.
    Be strong!

  • Hang in there, Tazeen. I think you had used up your allotted quota of bad lucks for the next several years! I’m glad that you guys survived the robbery, at least.

    Hopefully you’ll be able to recover some of the writings that were lost somehow (did you publish them online?). And hope that your dad will recover from his illness soon, too.

    Best wishes,
    Smorg

  • I can’t add anything that wouldn’t be fairly inadequate save best wishes for your father’s health and all your family’s peace of mind.

    Look after yourself.

  • That sucks. But it just did happen. You will rebuild everything bigger and better, the data and the spirit.

    Prayers for your father.

  • I didnt want to launch into a speech here, but I guess I have to 🙂

    First things first, I am glad you are safe and I hope your Dad is better and his health is improving as you read this. The rest does not matter.

    From what I can make out and of what little I know about you, you wouldnt care much about losing the laptops but more about the content on the laptop. And that beyond doubt is a tough thing to get over. Us humans can never figure out the big picture. Maybe, losing all the content might be a boon some ten years down the line. But we wont know that till it happens. Maybe you have been working on some stories for the past few years and had them on your laptop. Perhaps you would have published them few years down the line. And perhaps they would have been criticized and not have done well at all. Coz maybe you had not evolved as a writer 3 years ago. Maybe you are much better now, than you were three years ago. And if you sit down and try to re-write those stories, maybe they will come out in a much better way. Perhaps God thought, editing the old content will not work. Tazeen needs a fresh plate, coz that will lead to her success.

    And I know All this is a MAYBE.

    But whats done is done. Its not in your hands. However, how you deal with it is in your control. And I think you need to see this as an opportunity to start fresh, once again. Write those stories once again. And somewhere down the line, perhaps those laptops being robbed might be the best thing that had happened to you. Time will tell.

    You know that post I once had, about how when you build your muscles, they first break down. Then turn into something stronger. The same goes with your spirit. Some people might try to break it, but when you rebuild, it comes out stronger. I think you probably know all this, but still, I cant miss an opportunity to lecture ya! 😛

    Stories can be written again as long as one is around. When one is gone, his/her stories become part of someone else’s book. I am glad you are safe and I know you will be back soon!

  • This is absolutely devastating. It is horrible. Yes, this can break easily anyone’s spirit.
    Words will not console. Who can say what at such times.
    Emotional devastation, destruction of life’s hard work, and all that during a difficult time in family life.
    And then look at pitiable condition of police and authorities – who says Pakistan is not a failed state? Is there any doubt left.
    Horrible days are ahead.
    How any one can be consoled?
    Only if the prayers could heal!

  • ……..consider this one of those many downfalls that u will face in your life. Don’t let that eat u away.
    My prayers are with u and i do hope ur dad gets well soon.

  • Dear Tazeen,

    It is really vvvvvvvvvv sad to know abt all this. I m sure u r facing really hard time of yr life…..At this moment I am wishing you all the best….and most important May God bless your father. May God bless him long life full of good health.

    plz take care of yr self too

    Laila

  • This is undoubtedly tragic,no one should have to go through such an experience.

    but i guess what doesnt break you makes you stronger!so Tazeen this is painful but you will inshallah emerge stronger on the other side.

    May Allah bless your father with health and you with the courage to bear through this loss.Amen

  • You haven’t posted any update. Please take care and have faith. We’re all with you. It really helps to accept the loss and then use your energies to move forward. How is your dad now?

  • Hi Tazeen,
    I can only see one Golden ray in this sordid episode.You are not physically harmed.Thank god for that.I know it is very painful to loose those writings , Music etc.
    But i think you must be very careful now. We say in India normally the wound gets repeating in the same finger and bad things come in a row.It is realy very helpless feeling when your loved one is sufferring and you cannot do anything.Wish your dad a speedy recovery.
    Keep safe.

  • Tazeen, just visited the blogs which I was following and found about the tragedy with you. Well I don’t have the vocabulary to such words to condole you but I am sorry about your loss and I really feel Pain. Time is really a good Healer. Hope your Dad gets better in a time to come Inshallah, so that you forget your immediate loss.

  • Sorry to hear about this. I have to say, given the circumstances, an ordinary person would have crumbled.

    Hang in there! Seems you have a lot of well wishers behind you.

  • The thing which irked me most that those “MEN” were harassing a woman to rape her. I don’t understand what kind of MARDANGI it is to harass someone for the thing which is more precious for her. I know none of us(men) would feel good if we are harassed to cutt off our “manhood”. We would really feel pain after hearing such words then how come these man-like morons think about such thing? they could say anything else but threat of rape is unbearable. This is one of the few things which always make me feel ashamed of being a man. May we getrid of these “men” once and all.

  • how about recommending guard dogs at police stations instead of policemen!!

  • Hi,

    I hope you find enough strength to come out these troubles ..

    And keep blogging ..

  • well, i don’t know if you administer the comments on your blog or not, but I hope you will let it go.

    Haven’t you heard of the word back up. if you haven’t then u r not that smart you pretend to be and you totally deserve this

    and if you had and you were too lazy or arrogant to think that if would not happen to you, then u also deserve this

    Anyways, I am happy at your lost. Sick thing to say but that’s what you deserve for saying things against Taliban by the way which also makes you a infidel

  • @Talib: I do agree with backup thing and I also wonder why didn’t he do that. I myself have made several copies of my work and they are stored on CDs and even on online backups.

    as far as saying what she deserves or not..I oppose every view of Tazeen since beginning and I know I will never agree with her but then this opposition bases on views and ideology rather than personal conflict. I personally think that harassing a woman and threaten her to be raped is something which she and no woman on earth deserves. It’s better to call spade a spade.

    Thanks

  • so sorry to hear about every negative thing that has happened.
    i wont say that i m hoping like a maniac that things will get better, but prayers are in the offering!

  • hey, i dont think anything more can be said…. but yeah, at the end of the day, all that is left to do is rise up and salvage whatever of your life you can and move forward…
    i mean, i know how easy it is to say move on, but surely thats all that you can do…. so get back that grit which made you a fighter so long and fight for yourself…

    PS: praying for your father….

  • please take care
    good luck and best wishes

  • i dont know if my comment here would matter much…i see a lot here already. i think you are really brave! get well soon for your pops.

  • oh dear. am so sorry to hear about your ordeal. hope uncle gets better soon. wish i could help in some way.
    take care.

  • I cannot imagine the pain you have been going thru by losing all the giga bytes of your creative endeavours, only you can feel it. But I feel very sorry for all this.

    For these ruthless robbers it must have been just a peace of resellable machinery.

    I was amazed at your expectations from the local police when you wanted them to match fingerprints. In fiction I would expect this to be on default value. But this is reality and I have some idea how hopeless our police is.

    I wish you could get back your data somehow.

  • 🙁 hope both of you and your father feel better soon. I cant even imagine what it must feel liek to lose so many years’ hard work 🙁

  • I am really glad that you are ok.

  • Lut raha tha kisika jahan,
    Dekhti reh gayi yeh zameen,
    Chup raha bey-reham aasman.

    Ae mere Dil kahin aur chal ….

    This world is indeed a cruel place.

  • I am really sorry to hear that Tazeen. I am a first time visitor here on your blog (I followed through from another blog where you had left a link to your blog post on Imran Khan).

    I feel sad and miserable reading your post. I hope at least that your dad is doing better now.

    If I could do anything for you, please let me know. I wish, just like many others, to make Pakistan a better place … for everyone. All this stupidity has to stop!

    My heart goes out to you, and everyone living here!

    Please take care, and you know … you write really well! I hope to read more from you.

    With love and prayers
    — Sawant

  • This is extremely bizarre, being pointed at with guns is a scary thing, and I know exactly what you mean about losing the spirit when you have lost so much in terms of your memories (essays, photos etc). Given the day and age, you have to have the hope that if you really take the time to remember the details of what you had, you can and will be able to get back a ton of them. For e.g. the published ones, reach out to some of the publications, pics – send a note to all your friends and have then send you all the pics they have, and of course look through all your emails, often we have sent our unfinished works to ourselves, you may find some thing there too.

    I know this is not a solution, but as you do it you’ll feel better as you see that the pool of Tazeens life is lowly rebuilding itself. 🙂

    Stay well

  • I ended up here accidentally too, after trying to look for someone’s picture on google. I have lived in Karachi for 6 years and I can tell you this that this to me looks like a KHI POLICE JOB. Again, I can be wrong, and i’m just being skeptic. Here is a question, which i’m sure you also have thought about, What are you gonna do about it?

  • logged in after a long time only to find this. i kinda agree with whats written above… it does look like a police job. the way to get it back is to put the right buttons whereit hurts but for that you have to be the one with SOURCES at the right places. too bad, ordinary people like us dont have many. dont give up yet girl… just start all over again, please!

  • Take care, my dear. Maybe the police asking you to get a guard dog is not such a bad idea.

    You were working on a novel? Start again! Immediately! And keep mailing yourself the chapters.

    I am so sorry for not sending you a copy of my novel yet. I will soon, promise.

    I shall pray for your father to get well soon.

    love,
    Manju

  • This is so shocking Tazeen. I know how traumatizing it can be, in some ways your life will change forever but don’t let some anti social violent losers take away 9 days, let alone nine years of your life.

  • Dear Tazeen,

    I’m late commenting on this post and on your blog, but I just want to offer my condolences for what happened. You seem awfully emotionally resilient though, and I am happy to see that you’re pulling through despite all this.

    Keep blogging! Your voice is a much-needed one in the Pakistani blogosphere.

  • Wow. I’m really sorry that happened to you. It is such a scary situation to be in. Urgh. The things people do for a bit of money just to end up in hell later on. They will get theirs in the end.

    Hope all is well.

    Naseem

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